
One swallow does not make a summer, neither does one fine day…
~Aristotle from The Nicomachean Ethics
God gives every bird his worm,
but He does not throw it into the nest.
~Swedish Proverb

You wake wanting the dream
you left behind in sleep,
water washing through everything,
clearing away sediment
of years, uncovering the lost
and forgotten. You hear the sun
breaking on cold grass,
on eaves, on stone steps
outside. You see light
igniting sparks of dust
in the air. You feel for the first
time in years the world
electrified with morning.
You know something has changed
in the night, something you thought
gone from the world has come back:
shooting stars in the pasture,
sleeping beneath a field
of daisies, wisteria climbing
over fences, houses, trees.
This is a place that smells
like childhood and old age.
It is a limb you swung from,
a field you go back to.
It is a part of whatever you do.
~Scott Owen “Arrival of the Past”

The beginning of summer brings back early childhood memories of waking early in the morning with no plans for the day other than just showing up.
As a kid, I was never bored with so many open-ended hours before me; the air felt electric with potential adventures, whether it was building a tree fort, bushwhacking a new trail in the woods, searching out killdeer nests in the field, catching butterflies, or watching a salamander sunning itself for hours. The possibilities felt infinite and I was free as a bird to go looking for what the day had to offer.
By the time I was ten, I began to work to earn money to make my dream (owning my own horse) come true – picking berries, weeding gardens, babysitting neighbor kids. The work routine started early as dreams don’t happen without striving for them.
Now for the first time in 55 years, I awake knowing life has changed in the night: I don’t have a schedule and don’t need to show up to a job. The long summer days I thought were gone and forgotten have been here all along, just now uncovered again.
I can go back to those days of electrifying potential open-ended hours, just to simply show up to the moments before me.
I stand here, mouth open, ready to be fed.


Sounds like you have officially retired from your medical work! Congratulations! You have given it your “all”. Happy free days. Diann
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Dear Emily, Again we appear to be on parallel paths, we two primary’s docs who have never met, me the pediatrician in California who has been enjoying your daily posts for years now. It seems we are both retiring from active practice, July 1 for me. Thank you for your eloquent observations that fit both our lives. Gratefully, Susan
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easing into retirement one step at a time – taking the summer completely off and then part time (no leadership responsibilities) this next academic year.
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Overjoyed for you. Seize the summer! Bless you for sharing what you perceive ❤
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Retirement is calling my name, also. Slowly, slowly, with some trepidation, I will go forth. Enjoy the summer, Emily.
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You retired? Awesome! Congratulations! More time to snap beautiful pics!
April Brooks Ambrooks@mchsi.com
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A belated congratulations on retirement!!! Though I know you’ll have more than enough to do on your place. How wonderful for you!! ♥
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